Today is a hard anniversary of remembrance...6 years since the crash. I find that each year I brace myself, I remember, and I find that tears come easily and frequently, especially on January 17th.
Six years sounds like a long time, and in many ways it has been. I think I have aged double time in these past 6 years. It seems like forever since I was able to speak with Greg, since life was not so complicated. Yet, there are times that 6 years seems like a blink, a moment in the midst of the whole. Through out these 6 years I know without a doubt that I have shed more tears in that span of time than all of the years of my life that preceded.
Sometimes the tears creep up slowly, other times they appear in a overwhelming torrent. Yet, when they ease and the flow ends, healing of soul has occurred. It is comforting to know that shedding tears is nothing new, nor anything to be ashamed of, especially when grieving. The Bible tells much of times of sorrow and the shedding of tears by others who lost loved ones. Even Jesus shed tears at the tomb of his friend Lazarus.
You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.
Psalm 56:8
What a comfort to know that my tears are significant to God. He cares, He comforts with His Word. So, while today has been hard in many ways, I continue to cling to HOPE in the midst of the tears. I know my Redeemer lives, He is the victor over death. Some day, He will wipe the final tears that fall from my eyes when He makes all things new and all is restored.
2 comments:
You, Randy, and Steven, are not alone on Jan 17. We remember. We continue to pray for your family and for everyone who Greg touched during his time with us ( No easy task since he touched so many). We also take this time to give thanks that Steven has come so far. Even though we seldom see each other sonce we moved, Greg and Steven will always hold a special place in our hearts for all the joy they brought to us and especially to Sydney.
It is so amazing how far Steven got after the accident. I myself know the struggles of losing someone in a car accident, and the outcome of them being impared physically. My sister had an accident five years ago, which led to her being paralized. She passed away this summer due to her injuries and low spirits. I wish you and your family the best.
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